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Aha, AHA, AHA!!!

Often, when I open my eyes first thing in the morning, I reach for my handheld recorder. As I speak. ideas flow from one to the next.

Recently, they came together. I clicked the recorder on and started. “Aha! AHA! AHA!!!!”

Please stay with me. For those seeking illusive world peace, starting with political unity at home, it’s worth the ride.

“How many different ways can I say this?!!! First things first. Fix the paradigm. Only then does all else follow.” 

Seek ye first the Kingdom of God, that center of the quantum Life Wheel which the current paradigm rules out. Human survival depends upon returning to the essence of the perennial philosophy which allows direct, immediate personal access to inner authority.

For the curse of the obsolete, materialistic empirical science paradigm which rules out everything which can’t be measured and quantified is to be stuck on the surface with a pervasive sense of lack. Of not-enoughness.

Of the m=mass level of the quantum Life Wheel, it has been written:

Paradoxically, out of balance, abundance on the material plane seems to foster an insatiable sense of neediness. Lack of connection with the center breeds insecurities and greed. Infinite variations of the same eternal pattern are misconstrued as grounds for cultural conflict and competition for illusory supremacy.

As it is now, institutionalized human authorities, secular and sacred, manipulate to enslave and disempower the masses with the ultimate “malinformation:” a paralyzing worldview. So long as we’re locked into the straitjacket of a limiting paradigm, efforts to bring about positive change, however well-meaning, remain tragically futile.

Change the first things first. 

The courage and inspiration needed to overcome the globalist agenda reside within the deeper levels of the quantum Life Wheel which “science” rules out. We sometimes, by accident, get an occasional glimpse. But without a complete and accurate map, we don’t know how and where to consistently access what’s needed.

Even Einstein’s access was sporadic at best. 

Aha. AHA. AHA!!!!

The hollowed-out, materialist paradigm rules out awareness of the inner levels of energy and light. For this reason, we confuse, mistake and inappropriately express the inner energetic, poetic and spiritual meanings of the “hero’s journey.”

We act out on the surface level, in a literal way, that which is actually an inner urge for self-actualization. We seek to control others, rather than focusing on self-mastery.

The patriarchal, control and dominance paradigm doesn’t allow us to recognize the true nature of the archetypal impulse. Perhaps by design, it’s been rendered unconscious, inaccessible, and inexpressible in appropriate, inner ways.  

We venture forth to explore ever more distant new frontiers, capturing and conquering other peoples, as if this could satisfy spiritual longings. When in fact, that’s not the real, urgent need.

To reclaim the dynamics of the universal, internal impulse to growth, we first need to restore the complete and accurate Quantum Paradigm to collective consciousness – one that allows for the dynamic levels where the true hero journey actually takes place. One that would truly restore “power to the people.” 

Religious institutions too often enforce stagnant dogmas that put a lid on inner energies, preventing access to the inner authority we spontaneously crave and seek. They impose stale rituals as a substitute for genuine, real direct, spontaneous and immediate personal experience — connecting with Source.

Self-awareness and self-mastery are the appropriate satisfactions of inner urges which are too often misdirected outwardly as the impulse to aggression. That’s the real issue which must be recognized and addressed. Humanity urgently needs to reclaim and redirect inner urges historically expressed as invasions — warlike conquest.

To repeat: To correct and redirect this energetic dynamic, we first need to expand the paradigm. Align it with quantum reality.

First things first.  

Aha. AHA. AHA!!!!

It’s the inner, meditative journey imaged in the quantum Life Wheel to which we’re called, of which the outer, literal hero’s journey is only symbolic. It’s time to finally figure out what we really want and go after the real experience: the inward journey. Symbolic external conquest neither satisfies nor completes. 

Just maybe, one can hope and pray, we’ll get it right this time around. We’ll come to understand what we really want. What our basic value is. It’s the same freedom of worship which pilgrims on the Mayflower sought. They didn’t intend to exchange one religious persecution for another.

They quested for the freedom to experience directly for themselves the essence, the deepest truth which religions express. Not just the outer shell, a puritanical dogma. But consciousness itself. The awareness that we are each one with God. That we are made in the image of God. That each and every one of us are co-creators of reality, potentially powerful beyond measure.  

My pilgrim ancestor, William Kirby Brewster, left his homeland, braving the perils of an ocean voyage on the Mayflower to reach a “new world.”

It’s the same impulse that drives most illegal immigrants today. Why would anyone otherwise leave the familiar, risking the unknowns of the unfamiliar? Again, at the deepest, subconscious level, they’re impelled by the timeless call of the hero’s journey.  

They’re expressing literally, on the material level, something for which they have no map or model to articulate. They’re really trying to get back to wholeness, completion – to access and align with their own true selves — with the core center of unconditional love, from which all mental/emotional and material abundance flows.

What I now recognize is that the Phoenix Response described in Chapter Five of The Quantum Solution is a variation of the archetypal hero’s journey.

The tragic mistake of the narrow-minded, materialist thinker is to take symbols literally, as if what in quantum reality an inward soul journey of self-mastery were merely an outward adventure of exploration, conflict, domination and victory over others.

Only with the complete and accurate life map of the Quantum Paradigm does the intriguing, enticing wisdom of Lao Tze make sense, becoming truly achievable in our own daily experience.

Only in the context of the quantum Life Wheel does the Christian poetic imagery of being reborn make sense: Humans have the potential to die to the old by repeatedly returning to the quantum center and then extending outwards again, renewed and empowered, during the same lifetime.

Most often, this renewal is achieved through the intentional discipline of meditation.

In this context, repeated allusions to the timeless creative process envisioned in the world-loved Tao Te Ching make sense. References to the process of traversing the levels of quantum Life Wheel are found from the very first passage — which is why I called my version Two Sides of a Coin:

In a recent revisit, I was struck by how many passages repeat the quantum Life Wheel pattern of return to Source followed by extension back to the surface. Balanced moderation — integrating both sides of the process — is compared with the dangers of adhering to one extreme or the other — withdrawal OR attachment to manifested experience. Here’s one example:

Hence also the repeated references to youthful vitality and the sage’s likeness to a newborn. For example:

Here’s the contrast between the worldly rewards of focusing upon others versus the inner reward of self-knowledge:

The expanded version of the same passage contrasts the dangers inherent in the extreme, exclusively external, materialistic version of the hero’s journey, compared to the value of the quantum, inward trek towards self-mastery.

This wisdom applies on every scale of magnitude. Just as the advice to “mind your own business” as a top priority holds true inside families, communities on up to national affairs, it applies to international relations as well.

It was a well-known strategy in Maoist China, for example, for the tyrant to distract from dissatisfaction on the home front by redirecting attention, venting valid frustrations against an outside enemy.

It’s time for that repeating dynamic to stop.

Put the other way around, unless and until we see the universal impulse towards personal self-improvement through a clear, quantum lens, and harness it in appropriate ways, efforts on the large scale towards peacemaking, reconciliation and unity cannot succeed.

This natural dynamic cannot be suppressed. Nor should it be exploited, harnessed and misdirected by cynical warlords to serve destructive, unnatural ends.

From now on, let it be better, more wisely expressed.

At stake is human survival.

Friends Coming Full Circle

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Thursday, April 20th of 2017 wasn’t an ordinary shopping day. Once every two weeks, I routinely make the hour plus drive into Madison to buy groceries. But this day became a one-year book-end to last April’s Magical Day. That day, two parts woven into The Phoenix Response appeared. This day, given hints as subtle as two-by-fours, I clicked on the missing third part.

I look forward to these drives as a time to collect my thoughts and make plans. Truth funnier than fiction, a few days earlier, our teething brindle hound puppy dog trotted off with my reading glasses and thoroughly mangled them. So part of this day’s errands was an optometrist appointment to get new ones. I always take incidents affecting vision as a cue that it’s time to start seeing things differently.

As I drove, enjoying the rural Wisconsin spring greenery, one thing led to another. It started with mentally composing an email about the puppy to Lynn, my college roommate and dear friend.

We go back a long way, Lynn and I. On the surface, we couldn’t be more different. Tall and short, blond and brunette, scientist and musician. Yet, to my mother, we looked alike. The similarity she saw was the same expression on our faces. In some intangible way, we were on the same wavelength.

Back then, our unknown futures lay ahead of us.

Over time, we lost track of each other. But just before Christmas, Lynn found me again through this website. Since then we’ve been writing back and forth, reminiscing and catching up on the last forty years.

Lynn says she’s not a dog fan, so, thinking to entertain her, I was mulling over memories of different dogs I’ve known — the point being that, as with humans, some are definitely more likable than others.

In the process, it dawned on me that our renewed connection was the missing piece that ties The Phoenix Response together.

A year ago, I blogged:

Did you ever have a magical day – one that stands out even amongst the countless miracles that abound, most often unnoticed and unappreciated, in the midst of daily life?

Today offered one of those rare and precious moments to me. It had to do with basic life questions important to us all – about the quality of life and our purpose for surviving.

It was an encouraging day . . .[that] shone as a confirming ray of hope, strengthening my resolve to complete the book listed on CreateSpace as The Phoenix Response.

The initial cue came from finding The Longevity Book on a bestseller store shelf. Carmen Diaz’s first book was written for young women. This, her second, focuses on women entering middle age. But where’s the third?

An amazon reviewer’s Re line states “Wish she would have taken it to a woman’s age when she’s elderly.” The comment continues “There are so many things mothers did not tell daughters that many many of us in our 60’s, 70’s and 80’s have had to find out on our own – sadly.”

I observed: The Longevity Book begs for a sequel – one Im eminently qualified to supply. The Phoenix Response fills many gaps crying out for completion.

That day, however, thoughts about the aging process triggered personal memories. I wrote:

I thought back to my grandmother, Ellie West, who gave up a promising singing career to marry my grandfather, Hubble.

Late in her life, Ellie told me about the day he proposed. During a walk in the local park, he stopped in front an enormous sun dial set in granite and pointed to the attached plaque. Engraved onto the metal were the words of poet Robert Browning. “Grow old along with me. The best is yet to be.”

It won her heart.

As she described the event, now gray and ill, she shook her head. If not cynical, she seemed at best remorseful. For her, life hadn’t turned out the way the poet promised.

Her story left me with questions to ask in The Phoenix Response. Why did the poet associate growing old with the best yet to be? Why wasn’t this Ellie’s experience? What are the implications of her disappointment for Lynn and me as we come full circle, now even older than Grandma Ellie was when she told the youthful me about Hubba Hubba’s proposal?

Over time, the phoenix concept has expanded. In the blog with that title I wrote:

. . . here is the solution recorded in notebooks over the years. Whenever circumstances or people push me to suicide, I will die – but only to be reborn in this lifetime, over and over, each time better than before.

I called it The Phoenix Response.

I associated this intentional positive decision with the death and resurrection of Christ, whose archetypal pattern is an example for each of us to follow, at any time, as a matter of personal choice, commitment and dedicated follow-through.

Later I added:

My message for baby boomers: it’s still not too late. It’s not over til its over. Even for those of us who’ve let go of self-care and made mistakes along the way, there’s always a second chance. There’s always the Phoenix Response of regeneration – returning to the creative process of genesis itself, repairing not only original DNA of the body but of the soul.

Not only is this book dearly needed. The way for it is actually being paved and readiness created.

This April, I was receiving powerful hints from the powers that be that it’s time to start writing again. Further, I should seek out whatever assistance it takes to assure the widest publication possible.

I was pleasantly surprised by the outcome of the eye exam. My long-distance vision has actually changed for the better! And because I was from out of town, it was arranged to have the new reading glasses ready within an hour. I was able to take them home and start working the same day.

There was also a special cup I “knew” was waiting for me to find at the grocery store. A month earlier, I splurged on one with a geometrical blue-gray-violet Native American design. It bears this hopeful omen: “Give thanks for unknown blessings already on their way.”

This day’s companion cup pictured a scene reminiscent of ancient Asian landscape paintings. A bridge connects a valley in the foreground with distant mountains disappearing into a vast sky. The cup’s quote confirmed my experience: “Some days have God’s fingerprints all over them.”

The cup now sits directly above my computer. As I continue to gaze on it, the bridge image grows on me. For we both are inevitably approaching life’s completion in death. Lynn has had bouts with breast cancer. I’ve had my share of physical health scares as well.

But I am of a certainly that death is a bridge to another dimension, whereas fatalistic Lynn probably thinks of it as a dead end, an abrupt full stop, a dark extinction.

This, then, has become the central challenge of The Phoenix Response. How do I lovingly, persuasively communicate to her, to our whole generation, and for that matter, her daughters and their children, about our marvelous but sadly forgotten, neglected and denied potentials.

What practical, proactive methods can we bring to our life and death questions while there’s still precious time left to make positive changes?

How can we make friends with the opportunity inherent in our ultimate transformation, accepting physical death as integral to the larger pattern of repetitive, cyclical change?

How do I bypass tenaciously held prejudice and culturally enforced taboos to help reconnect others once again with the innate birthright we all share in common?

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A Magical Day

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Did you ever have a magical day – one that stands out amongst the countless miracles that abound, most often unnoticed and unappreciated, in the midst of daily life?

Today offered one of those rare and precious times for me, bringing up basic life questions important to us all – about the quality of life and very purpose for surviving.

So I’ll share with you what happened and why, in the seemingly endless blur of discouragements and doubts, it shone like a confirming ray of hope, strengthening my resolve to complete the book now listed on CreateSpace as The Phoenix Response.

Today’s story begins, once again, by connecting the dots between two seemingly ordinary events leading to an extraordinary outcome.

The Longevity Book by Cameron Diaz sparked the first. My eyes halted over it while scanning the bestseller bookshelf at Walmart. The hunch flashed that it had an important message for me. I should look into it.

The second was triggered by the first. I thought back to my grandmother, Ellie West, who gave up a promising singing career to marry my grandfather, Hubble.

Late in her life, Ellie told me about the day he proposed. During a walk in the local park, he stopped in front an enormous sun dial set in granite and pointed to the attached plaque. Engraved onto the metal were the words of poet Robert Browning. “Grow old along with me. The best is yet to be.”

It won her heart.

As she described the event, now white-haired and ill, she shook her head. If not cynical, she seemed at best remorseful. For her, life hadn’t turned out the way the poet promised.

Until today, however, I hadn’t thought carefully about her disappointment. Although I remembered the first two lines of the poem, I’d forgotten the name of the poet and never knew the context of those lines, much less the name of the poem from which they came.

Nor had I wondered what she hoped living to old age would be like, or how and why her expectations were left unfulfilled.

Thinking further on these things now brought magical gifts that answered doubts as to my own future directions.

With a little effort, I recovered the poet’s name, the context of the lines and the poem’s name.

The first stanza of Robert Browning’s poem begins:

Grow old along with me!
The best is yet to be,
The last of life, for which the first was made:
Our times are in His hand
Who saith “A whole I planned,
Youth shows but half; trust God: see all, nor be afraid!”

I also searched out a link to the complete poem in which the stanza appears, Rabbi Ben Ezra

This, of course, led to further questions, as well as an Aha! Who was Rabbi Ben Ezra? When did he live? How are his personal story and life work relevant to us now? More specifically, how does his history and Browning’s poem matter to my immediate question – whether or not to complete The Phoenix Response?

Long story short, the good Rabbi born and died in in northern Spain, 1089-1167distinguished himself as a poet, philosopher and astrologer. Between earliest and end years, persecuted for his beliefs, his restless wanderings took him through North Africa, Israel, Italy, England and France.

His ideas outlasted him to influence Browning. Remarkably, the longer poem is interspersed with phrases that could as easily have been drawn from my own writing: I see the whole design, Perfect I call Thy plan.

There is a hint of the phoenix legend: Leave the fire ashes, what survives is gold.

And a foreshadowing of Christ’s enduring presence throughout human history:

Earth changes, but thy soul and God stand sure:
What entered into thee,
That was, is, and shall be:
Time’s wheel runs back or stops: Potter and clay endure.

Not only are there references to a divine Potter and “earth’s wheel” but actually, in conclusion, the WHEEL of LIFE itself. He names the very image (Platonic Idea, meme, archetype – call it what you will) that serves as the substantive foundation of the Positive Action response.

The poem concludes:

My times be in Thy hand!
Perfect the cup as planned!
Let age approve of youth, and death complete the same!

At first reading, I cannot begin to fully understand this poem, much less the philosophical works which inspired it. The writing is complex and terse — more than a little bit difficult. But this much seems clear. There is a succession of ideas being handed down through the generations. Each writer starts up where the last left off, competes the next piece, and hands the work forward for another generation to pick up and continue.

I was comforted to think that my work is interwoven within a larger pattern, connected in the world of ideas with forerunners. Surely I am linked with a larger whole and charged with contributing to the evolution of an ongoing heritage.

On a personal level, Grandma Ellie handed down her unfinished aspiration for me to take the next step. John Philip Sousa auditioned and invited her to travel as a soprano soloist with his band during their European tour. Because she decided to marry instead, she saw in my life the completion of her early aspirations. She was delighted when she heard that I was studying and performing as a violinist in Europe.

And just as Grandma Ellie left me unfinished work to complete, so my writing on holism and the Life Wheel may fulfill fellow violinist Albert Einstein’s heartfelt desire. He intuited the existence of a Unified Theory. Ironically, he’d already received it, but lacked the yogic training to recognize it for what it is:

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Returning, however, back to the first strand — the book that sparked this line of thought. Diaz’s best-seller  promises to address a holistic life view. Its description claims: “The Longevity Book offers an all-encompassing, holistic look at how the female body ages —and what we can all do to age better.

There’s so much that could be better accomplished by applying the multi-dimensional Life Wheel model to the claim of being” all-encompassing.” This includes the concept of Einstein’s beloved compass and his call for compassion. For those unfamiliar with the work to which I’m referring or who would like a reminder, here’s a link to bring you up to speed on The Positive Paradigm.

Among reviews, I found a comment supporting my first take that The Longevity Book begs for a sequel – one which I’m eminently qualified to supply. The Phoenix Response fills many gaps crying out for completion. As the reviewer points out, Diaz wrote one book for young women, and now this second for those entering middle age.

The reviewer’s Re line states “Wish she would have taken it to a woman’s age when she’s elderly.” The comment continues “There are so many things mothers did not tell daughters that many of us in our 60’s, 70’s and 80’s have had to find out on our own – sadly.”

My basic message for everyone, up to and including baby-boomers of both genders: it’s never too late. It’s not over til it’s over. Even for those of us who’ve let go of self-care and are now paying the price, there’s always a second chance. There’s always the Phoenix Response of regeneration – going back to the magical creative process of genesis embodied in the Life Wheel.

With this knowledge, it’s possible for self-healers to repair not only original the DNA of the physical body, but also the more subtle pattern of the soul, restoring wholeness by healing literally — as the infinity pattern shows — from the inside out.

So yes, without a doubt. Not only is this work dearly needed. The way for it is actually being paved and readiness created.

So – I’m especially grateful for life-confirming days like this one when the ever-present magic speaks with exceptional clarity.

So my best wish for you is the same. May you have a magical day as well!